Weeks 14, 15, & 16

Hey Lovely People!

Sorry no update...we've been busy. Carlos and I have both been working some crazy hours at our jobs so we've had little down time. But that doesn't mean LiLNewton hasn't been busy.

Week 14

Physical- Tired...Tired...Hungry...Tired
Emotional-Terrified of food...but making our friendship work again.
Spiritual- Trusting the Lord to help me through this physical and emotional transition


Week 15

Physical- Oh wait! Is that Energy I Feel? Is That Hunger without a side of morning sickness I feel? Oh Hey! Is That The Baby I Feel? *Yes to All the above* :)
Emotional- Super super super excited!
Spiritual- Thankful and Thoughtful

Week 16

Physical
Baby: Lots of Energy and Always hungry.
Mommy: Lots of Energy and Always hungry.

Emotional:
Baby: Wondering why Mommy talks to me so much.
Mommy: EXTREMELY excited because my Mother-in-law was coming to visit this week. Knowing that she was going to be there when we found out what gender "LiL Newton" is was just to exciting.
For a moment at the appointment I thought we weren't going to be able to find out but they pulled some string to get the scan done. It was so sweet to see my Mother-in-Laws face when she heard that we are having a GIRL. I was cool with girl or boy but what made me happiest about the ultrasound was to hear the doctor say "Man! Your baby is REALLY active. It's moving all over the place." Hearing that our "Lil Newton" was not only growing but is an active lil thing gave my heart so much peace. It's also so cool to start using her name. Our little Olivia already has people in love with her.

Spiritual:
Baby: The Lord Is Still Making Me Awesome
Mommy: I'm over the moon thankful right now. The Lord has blessed us with a health pregnancy so far and He saw fit to let my Mother-in-law be present for a very precious moment in the pregnancy. Seeing Carlos face as the thinks about his little girl just makes my day. The Lord is really to good to us.

Week 13

Hello Peoples!
Lil Newton and I have made it through week 13 :)
Here is what we've been up to.

*Physically*

Baby: So I got my finger prints this week. I worked hard on making them super awesometastic :) Also spent my week doing some laps around mommies tummy.

Mommy: I reached out to several lovely sisters in the the Lord this week to pray about my reluctance to eat. My morning sickness has been by no means severe but because it has been so sporadic I don't know a safe food anymore. Now that we are in the second trimester my food intake needs to increase a bit but the last few weeks have made me pretty terrified of every meal. But I do feel like things are turning around for the better. I was only "sick" once this week and the nausea is slowly being replaced by overwhelming hunger. I actually WANTED something in particular this week. The first trimester was a mad dash to the fridge just to keep the morning sickness at bay but this week I had a desire to eat. And boy was that Proni's spicy Italian sausage sandwich AWESOMETASTIC. It was one of those beautiful moments in life :)

*Emotionally*

Baby: Just chilln 

Mommy: I found myself a bit anxious this week. All the pregnancy symptoms of the first trimester may be annoying but they serve as a daily mental conformation of pregnancy. As those fade and the fact that it's to early to feel the baby move I feel a bit detached from the situation. Lil Newton is minding his/her own business and my hormones are leveling out. I'm starting to feel better...which in turn makes me NOT feel pregnant. *not sure if that makes any since* I wake up in the morning feeling just like I did before we got pregnant which is a little un-nerving. The fact that my baby bump is smaller in the mornings doesn't help the situation lol.  I'm greatly looking forward to the next ultrasound just so I can see how our little one is doing. It feels like it's been forever since I've seen our love muffin : ) 

*Spiritually*

Baby: Chilln

Mommy: The Lord saw fit to make sure that right next to my mommy app my Bible app keeps bringing up scriptures about not worrying. I don't think anything could bring more comfort than that. I've been thanking the Lord for the wonderful out pouring of loving advice and prayers from the many women in my life. Distance has not kept them from constantly sending love our way. I also can't help but thank the Lord for Carlos *who has developed a hand that automatically rubs my stomach when he thinks something is wrong with me* (meaning if I say "Carlos my head hurts." He rubs my stomach as if it will automatically cure my issue). He is a constant blessing and this week of worries and anxiety has been greatly brightened by his craziness.

Week 12

Hey Loves and Lovelies! Time to update on another week gone by.
We are finishing up week 12 tonight which means the 1st Trimester Is Almost COMPLETED!
Life seems to fly by when you start measuring it in weeks. It's hard to believe that this is REALLY happening.


*Physically*
Baby: (LiL Newton's view of the doctor checking for a heartbeat at our appointment) This week I was minding my own business...just growing and stuff...then somebody start jabbing around where I live. I moved around a bit to get out of their way but they just didn't seem satisfied so I had to bust out my newly acquired kung fu moves and take care of it. After few lightning quick kicks whatever it was decided it was best to move on. Yeah...that's what I thought.

Mommy: Things have just been progressing from last week. My energy is Way up but the morning sickness seems to be getting worse. The doc we saw this week asked if I wanted to take some meds for it but I've read that most of the meds just take care of the sickness and not the quiziness. Also I've kinda surprised myself with how determined I've become not to take anything "extra" during this pregnancy. I just don't like the idea of taking a medication unless I absolutely have to. Don't worry ladies I haven't made up my mind that the epidural and I wont become come friends but I think I'll wait till then to make that decision. I've gained 2 and 1/2 pounds since my last appointment. However I may have to reconsider the morning sickness meds if things don't improve soon. This week has been the roughest so far and I don't want this to interfere with my job. She did tell me to try vitamin B6 though so I'll give that a shot.  

*Emotionally*

Baby: Still a little mad at mom and dad for letting that crazy person invade my personal space earlier this week...but Mom had ice cream earlier so I may be able to overlook this kinda stuff this once.

Mommy: I've just really been missing my family this week. The crazy situation going on at my job right now has kept us from making a trip down to Bama to see them. I just feel like my mom should have been able to rub my belly by now. I haven't gotten to see the big smile on my dad's face when he thinks about his grand baby. I haven't seen my little sisters animatedly demonstrate how excited they are. Oh and I haven't gotten to kiss my twin sisters cheeks and tell her the great news. *though I'm sure my mom has mentioned it to her a few times* I could also use a few days of chill time with my Love. I can see us starting to do more and more "forward thinking" and I don't want us to lose the beauty of the moment.

*Spiritually*

Baby: The Lord gave me these cool reflexes this week. Just in here working them out...doing a few laps.

Mommy: The Lord still has me in a bit of a chill mode. I was very hard on myself at the start of this trimester. I was frustrated that I couldn't keep up with the other kids lol. But I'm just taking in the amazingness of this whole thing. The Lords plan from my life has been NOTHING like I thought it would be and it's all the more beautiful because of it. I'm praying that I remember to enjoy out little persons childhood. I know it will be here and gone before I know it. I've seen other moms bring their babies home from the hospital and in a few days it seems they've grown up lol. I'm praying for our patience as parents and for our child's patience as we learn to be parents.

Week 11

Week eleven is quickly coming to a close so here is a quick update.
Physically:
Baby: Growing, growing, growing!

Mommy: I'm getting my energy back! I can still take epic naps but when I'm awake I'm much more energetic. I'm not at full power yet but I'm happy for any improvement. However as my energy comes back my morning sickness is getting worse. My little love is rejecting at least one meal a day. LiL Newton needs to get a job and start paying for the food we are wasting. I'm not as round anymore and Carlos says I look like I may be losing weight. We'll find out for sure at my next doc appt on Monday.
Emotionally:
Baby: I'd don't understand why Mom won't just give me what I want.
Mommy:
I'm in a good place right now. Just on a one day at a time kinda vibe. Carlos has been wonderful company this past week which has really helped my mood. He's sacrificed a few movie nights just to sit and talk with me. Watching him watch a video on what a baby does in the first twelve weeks has prob been my weeks highlight. He was very impressed with our little persons progress. I'm looking forward to our next doctor visit but I know in the back of my mind it's still to early to know if we are having a boy or girl. I just can't help wondering...
Spiritually:
Baby: The Lord is still making me awesome
Mommy:
The Lord has given me so much peace this week. I'm a pretty high strung person but in His wisdom He pushed the relax button I can't reach. I'm really keeping the hubby n wife relationship in prayer. I know having a child can put stain on that dynamic so I figure it wouldn't hurt to start praying a bit early.
12 weeks tomorrow n excited for our coming adventures

Week 10 Talk

So we are 10 weeks into this amazing adventure and I figured it's time for me to start keeping track of things. So I'm gonna take a page from MamaNatural on youtube and each week (or so) talk about how I'm/we are doing physically/emotionally/and spiritually.

Physically:

Baby: Lil Newton has completed the most trying stage of development. We had a little scare early on but the Lord is awesome and Lil Newton just wanted to get our adventures started early. Our little bundle of joy has fingers, toes, and a big head. Oh...Oh and reflexes. According to my handy dandy mommy app someone has already started to kick me...but is still a little to little for me to notice it yet. The Lord is beautifully knitting together a tiny Newton-Simmons Combo and that's just AWESOMENESS waiting to be born.

Mommy: I kinda feel like I've been involved in some sort of invasion of the body snatchers type thing. I'm no longer in control of my body in anyway whatsoever. I can't eat, sleep, or even think without it somehow being mixed up in pregnancy madness. No real morning "sickness" but the nausea is for the birds. *sorry birds* I thought I had it down to a pretty good science the first few weeks. When I woke up I felt like poo but by 1 or 2 with snacks in hand I was ready to take on the day. However Lil Newton loves to mix things up and decided to move those issues from am to pm. No snack works twice and water is of the devil. By the time Carlos gets home I'm dragging my body into bed and praying for quick sleep. Honestly I think the first trimester just turns you into a gross, grumpy, rounder version of yourself. Speaking of round...my pants are in rebellion. Okay I was long over due to buy some new pants before we found out but goodness. I can only fasten one pair of work pants comfortably now. I've been doing the hair tie over the button for my jeans but it is quickly becoming a non option. My body is doing as it should but my brain is having a hard time keeping up with the fact that just because I feel like I've not eaten a decent meal in weeks doesn't mean I won't get bigger. It doesn't help that with every button burst Carlos seems to be getting smaller. I Think he has a plan that for every pound I gain he is going to lose one. By the time I'm ready to pop he is gonna look like a swimsuit model and I'm going to the whale swimming in the background.

Emotionally:

Baby: Just chillen...ain't no big...just could use a lil more of them sonic hot dogs...oh and some Chinese food if  ya don't mind. Oh one more thing...ice cream...yeah I like that stuff.

Mommy: I think I may have been in a bit of denial at first that this is even happening but as my pants get smaller and my pee runs become more frequent it's hitting home. I'm extremely excited about my little baby bear but as far as we go things are pretty chill. Baby is growing...so is mommy. It's my interactions with the rest of the world that are a little up and down. Emotionally it's been hard to stay positive at home and at work because I don't feel like I'm contributing. No one is making me feel that way...but when I see the productivity of others compared to mine I wanna just go back to bed. Carlos and Sky have been awesome at home. I've not heard one complaint at home from them. They understand that some food is NOT FOR SHARING...now we're all good. My boss is like "Teresia just bring your snacks out of the sales floor. We know you need to eat so stop trying to hide your apple slices." *note to self after birth NEVER EAT A GREEN APPLE AGAIN.*  I get barked at all day at work...Don't pick that up! Stop moving so fast! When was the last time you ate?! What did you eat?! Where is your water?! Do you need to pee?! By the end of the day I feel like screaming "I'm having a child...that doesn't make me a child!" But that would be super rude and would quickly be blamed on a mood swing. I know they all mean well but I feel like they had to babysit all day while I just ran back and forth to the bathroom. So all in all I'm trying to be upbeat...but I'm beat...and that makes be feel beat.

Spiritually:

Baby: The Lord is making me so awesome right now

Mommy: On the flip side of the emotion spiritually I'm feeling great. I've been thanking the Lord in an even more sincere way each day for my little family. I have an amazing husband who has been surprisingly calm through these ten weeks and his daily sacrifice is beyond appreciated. The Lord has blessed me we a ton of amazing women in my life that are more than willing to hit me back via text and fb message if I have an odd pregnancy question. It's been such a blessing to get a little closer with my mother-in-law and sister-in-law through this. We have a great deal of distance between us but the Lord is allowing me to feel their love all the way down here. I've gotten lots of text and calls from some amazing mothers who just wanna know how I'm doing. Which is odd yet wonderful for me because I'm use to walking around wondering how all of them are doing. Despite the little gray cloud that tries to chase me down all day the Lord never lets me get to far gone. He makes sure I have breather in the car with a cone of ice cream and reminds me what an AMAZING thing is going on right now. The weeks are FLYING by and I can only be more and more thankful each day as the Lord prepares me for another gift I don't deserve but He has seen fit to allow me to have.

Babysitter, DayCare, or Stay At Home Mom?

A Fax Came Through At My Job A Few Weeks Ago And Although I Didn't Meet All The Requirements For The Position I Thought I'd Give It A Try Anyway. I Thought On It, Prayed About It, Even Went As Far As Asking My Regional Loss Prevention Manager If He Thought I Should Give It A Shot. He Said I Wouldn't Know Unless I Tried. But After A Few More Days Of Deliberation I Just Couldn't Bring Myself To Put In The Application. Carlos And I Had Just Found Out We Are Expecting And This Amazing News Just Kept Poking Holes In The Idea Of Pursuing That Job. The Position Would Have Required Frequent Travel Between Three States To Over See Loss Prevention For A New District. The Training Would End And The Travel Would Start Just A Bit After Little Newton(s) Are Born. The Idea Of Being Away From Our Newborn For Several Days At A Time Just Weeks After Coming Home Just Didn't Sit Well With Me. The Idea Of Leaving A Newborn With A Babysitter Or In A DayCare Just Doesn't Appeal To Me At The Moment Either. (However That Baby Isn't Here Yet So This Idea Is Subject To Change). But With The Current Mind Set The Only Other Option Would Be To Take On The Stay At Home Mom Challenge. Now I'm Well Aware That Many Stay At Home Moms Work From Home and That Sounds A Little More My Speed. However, That Means I'd Have To Find A Legit Form Of Work That Would Fit Into My Routine Of Dishing Out New Diapers And Sweeping Up Cheerios.

*Enters Carlos After A Hard Day At Work*
He Looks So Tired, He's Covered In Dirt, And He Has To Kick Off His Heavy Work Boots At The Door. He Gives Me A Smile And Tells Me For The Zillionth Time Not To Hug Him Cuz He's Sweating And He Stinks. (I Don't Get Why He Doesn't Understand That I Don't Care...I'm Just Happy He's Home). I Look At Him And I Wonder Where I Ever Got The Idea Of Leaving The Work Force. He Works SOOOOOOOOOOOO Hard To Keep Food On The Table And A Roof Over Our Heads. He'd Be Gone From Sunrise To Sunset If I Just Stopped Working. He'd Never Complain To Me Though. He'd Just Come Home, Kick Off His Boots, Kiss Me, And Sleep For A Few Hours. Needless To Say Not Working Just Doesn't Seem Like An Option For Me, At Least Not If I Ever Want To See My Husband Again.

This Train Of Thought Got Me To Wondering About What Other New Moms Decided To Do. What Option Did You Go With? Are There More Options? Did You Go Through More Than One Of These Options As Your Kids Got Older? Was This An Easy Or Hard Decision Between Your And Spouse? Are Any Of You Currently In This Position?

Please Lovely Ladies Let Me Know Your Thoughts
(Please Be Respectful Of The Options You DIDN'T Choose. Other Wonderful Mommies May Have Picked A Different Option Than You)


ps. Oh! Baby Newton Has Reached 7 Weeks :)

Teenage Boy Syndrome

From Teresia:

Our Recent Trip To Columbus Highlighted For Me One Major Skill I'm Lacking In. I've Dubed It Teenage Boy Syndrome...Let Me Explain

Teenage Boy Syndrome: The Inability To Form Coherent Thoughts Or Sentences Around Females Of The Human Species.

When Ever I'm Around Other Women I Seem To Just Shut Down.

In My Brain: Hey! I Want To Know Everything About You. I Want A Deep, Meaningful, And Long Friendship With You.

What Comes Out Of My Mouth: I...I Umm...I Like Your Shirt *FacePalm*

At The End Of Our Trip I Felt Like I Had Wasted So Much Time. I Could Have Taken Those Hours To Dive Deep Into The Lives Of Those Lovely Women And Gotten To Know Them Much Better.

The Close Female Friends I Already Have Are Simply Walking Neon Signs Of The Lords Provision And Grace In My Life. They Each Have Come About With Little To No Effort Of My Own. They Were Not There And Then They Simply Were And They Have Each Been Wonderful Sources Of Light At Different Points In My Life. But Even Those Wonderful Lovelies Only Know Half As Much About Me As They Think They Do.

For Whatever Reason They Lord Felt The Need In His Wisdom To Make My Brain The Dumping Ground For Other Peoples Problems *Not Complaining AT ALL.* I Love The Fact That Others Feel They Can Confide In Me And They Expect An Answer From Me That Not Only Comes From My Heart But Is Saturated In Biblical Truth. I've Had People Walk Up To Me In Stores, Gas Stations, At School, and The List Could Go On. If I Make Eye Contact It's Over lol They Start To Pour Out Their Hearts And Honestly There's No Where Else I'd Rather Be Because I Know What It's Like To Just Need To Get Those Word Out Of Your Head And Into The Space Outside Of You.

Carlos: Babe...I Don't Think You Understand How Important You Are To So Many People
Me: *In My Head* I Don't Think You Understand How Important You Are Because I Don't Trust Other People.

At The Heart Of It I Have Major Trust Issues. I LOVE People And I've Made A Life Long Effort To Be An Open Ear And To Keep From Having A Condemning Tongue. But...I Don't Give Others *Especially Women* The Benefit Of The Doubt. In My Head For Years I've Built Major Walls To Try And Keep People Out Of My Heart And My Head Because I Struggle With The Idea Of Unconditional Love.

If I Struggle With The Idea Of God's Unconditional Love For Me You Can Bet I Don't Give Credit To A Strangers Capacity To Love Me.

So To The Question.
Do Any Of You Ladies Have Issues With Forming Strong Female Relationships? Honestly Do Your Friends Really Know You Like They Think They Do? How Important Is Community For Sisters In The Faith? How Does That Need Change Over Time? What Can Those Of Us That Struggle With This Issue Do?

Little Newton

A Few Days Ago Carlos And I Were Able To Share Amazing News With Our Family And Friends.

WE ARE HAVING A BABY

We Are Beyond Excited But As With Any Life Changing News It Hasn't Completely Settled In Yet That This Is REALLY Happening. In 8ish Months We'll Bring A Little One or Two Of Us Into The World And Then...Yeah.

 

Since Both Of Our Pregnancy Apps Suggested We Start A Journal And Because Carlos Has Already Started A Daily Baby Moment I'll Just Plug It In Here.

I'll Probably Take All Of His Thoughts From The Week And Add In what Mine Where.

 

Here Are My Loves Thoughts So Far.

 

 

Day 1: Life as I know it has changed. Ever since Teresia Newton has been #withchild, I no longer see the world as I once did. So much crime, hunger, crying, and strange laughter has filled the air...and that's jus in my house.! #LMBO!!!

 

I hope we have twins. That way I can name one #BooBoo and the other #TeeTee! #gottarepthehood!...lol!!!

 

#Day2: Got home from work, ran up on Teresia Newton in my Barry White voice singing "So you having my baby, and it means so much too meeeeee!!!" But instead of getting all mushy and feeling the love...she asked me was I ok and in need of medical assistance? #didntgetasplaned...lol!!!

 

Day 3: I have so many questions...because this doesn't seem to be going right. If I'm the man...why am I waking up feeling sick, super hungry, and super tired? Wait...am I even the man?!?! Wait...did we wake up in an alternate universe where they switched everything around?!?! Wait...if so, WHERE'S IT COMING OUT OF!!!! Wait...am I the one pregnant?!?! Wait...do I need to call Oprah?!?!? #imsoooconfusedrightnow!!...lol!!

 

This may actually be a question in my mind...lol!!!

Although Teresia and I have NO CONTROL over our child (s) salvation (Eph 1:3-14), know that we are earnestly praying and asking the Lord to save em. #haveyourwayLord

 

Every time Teresia Newton says something hurts or bothers her, I automatically assume the baby(s) trying to communicate with me. Teresia: My feet hurt. Me: Is the baby trying to walk to me? Teresia: My eyes hurt. Me: Is the baby trying to see me? Teresia: My hand hurts. Me: Is the baby trying to write me a letter? #thisisgonnsbealong9months...lol!!!

 

Day 4: I had dreams of "waking up in a new Bugatti", now it seems ima have to settle for a Astro mini van with bucket seats. #seemslikeafairtrade...looool!!!

 

Day 5: These mood swings are starting to scare me. Teresia Newton woke up all loving and caring, holding and kissing me-then all of a sudden; her eyes turned red, her lip curled inward, and these black wings and fire appeared outta nowhere when she realized I drunk all "MY" water up. Then she put the fire out, asked for a kiss, and laid her head on my shoulder. #thisisstartingtogetawkward...lol!!!

 

Dear Baby(s): I'm sitting here with your mother talking about all the dumb things we did as lil kids, and I feel its safe to warn you of what you'll probably end it doing. (1) You will attempt to kill or hurt your siblings (Sorry Re Re). (2) We will place things around the house, tell you not to play with them, hoping you will, so we can yell at you for playing with them (yeah that happens). (3) Y...ou will be smarter than us in school, but we'll never admit it, so keep it to yourself. (4) You'll love the Lakers, or hate the Heat/Hawks (Either ways a win for me)! (5) We will threaten your life. And if what we said makes no sense to you, know that it makes no sense to us either, but that's what came in our minds at the moment, so jus roll with it. (6) We'll teach you the love of the Father, the sacrifice of the Son, and the warmth of the Holy Spirit...all while loving the heck outta you!!! Lord willin, #seeyouin8months!

 

 

Day 6: Its slowly starting to hit me that I'm about to be a father-again, and I'm trying not to freakout! I had my 1st child at the age of 19, and I was a TERRIBLE father. I didn't have a male figure in my life to lead nor guide me, so I winged all my moves. And then when times got rough, I got scared and ran out of their lives. I wanted to do better. I wanted to be there for them more...but I just... didn't know how! But I'm glad to say that even without me in his life full time, my son has grown into an AWESOME young man, and I'm beyond proud of him!! That's why this time around I bug Teresia Newton like I do (well...that's partly true. I also love annoying her too...lol!). I wanna be there from the time they come out, until the time they bury me. I still don't have a strong male figure to look up too, but that's cool, because I have my Heavenly Father this time around...and you can't get no stronger than Him!! Lord willin, #seeyouin8months!

 

Teresia's Thoughts

 

I Think Over All I'm In A State Of Amazement At What Is Happening Inside Me RIGHT NOW. The Lord Is Forming And Shaping A Little Person For His Glory.

CRAZINESS!

I'm Also A Bit Perturbed By My Lack Of Knowledge On What To Do Next. Who Do I Talk To? Where Do I Go? How Do You Find The Best Doctor? When Are We Going To Eat? What Exercises Can I Do? I Can't Eat Feta?! How Long Does It Take The Vitamins To Reach The Baby? Why Do I Apologies To The Baby Every Time I Bend Over To Pick Something Up? Why Is Carlos Asking Soooooooooooooooooooooo Many Questions? Why Do I Have To Pee Again? When Are We Going To Eat? Can I Take A Nap? When Will The Dizzy Spells Stop? When Are We Going To Eat?

 

 

Every Time I Learn A Valuable Lesson On Not Worrying About Anything The Lord Sees Fit To Walk Me Straight Into A Situations That Makes My Brain SCREAM With Things I Could Be Worried About. But I'm Determined To Be A Happy Mom And Part Of That Happiness Depends Greatly On My Dependence On The Lord.

Also All The Motherhood Knowledge Of My Sisters In The Lord Is GREATLY Appreciated.

 

: )

 

That's All For This Week

 

Until Next Time

Grace & Peace