Physically:
Baby: Lil Newton has completed the most trying stage of development. We had a little scare early on but the Lord is awesome and Lil Newton just wanted to get our adventures started early. Our little bundle of joy has fingers, toes, and a big head. Oh...Oh and reflexes. According to my handy dandy mommy app someone has already started to kick me...but is still a little to little for me to notice it yet. The Lord is beautifully knitting together a tiny Newton-Simmons Combo and that's just AWESOMENESS waiting to be born.
Mommy: I kinda feel like I've been involved in some sort of invasion of the body snatchers type thing. I'm no longer in control of my body in anyway whatsoever. I can't eat, sleep, or even think without it somehow being mixed up in pregnancy madness. No real morning "sickness" but the nausea is for the birds. *sorry birds* I thought I had it down to a pretty good science the first few weeks. When I woke up I felt like poo but by 1 or 2 with snacks in hand I was ready to take on the day. However Lil Newton loves to mix things up and decided to move those issues from am to pm. No snack works twice and water is of the devil. By the time Carlos gets home I'm dragging my body into bed and praying for quick sleep. Honestly I think the first trimester just turns you into a gross, grumpy, rounder version of yourself. Speaking of round...my pants are in rebellion. Okay I was long over due to buy some new pants before we found out but goodness. I can only fasten one pair of work pants comfortably now. I've been doing the hair tie over the button for my jeans but it is quickly becoming a non option. My body is doing as it should but my brain is having a hard time keeping up with the fact that just because I feel like I've not eaten a decent meal in weeks doesn't mean I won't get bigger. It doesn't help that with every button burst Carlos seems to be getting smaller. I Think he has a plan that for every pound I gain he is going to lose one. By the time I'm ready to pop he is gonna look like a swimsuit model and I'm going to the whale swimming in the background.
Emotionally:
Baby: Just chillen...ain't no big...just could use a lil more of them sonic hot dogs...oh and some Chinese food if ya don't mind. Oh one more thing...ice cream...yeah I like that stuff.
Mommy: I think I may have been in a bit of denial at first that this is even happening but as my pants get smaller and my pee runs become more frequent it's hitting home. I'm extremely excited about my little baby bear but as far as we go things are pretty chill. Baby is growing...so is mommy. It's my interactions with the rest of the world that are a little up and down. Emotionally it's been hard to stay positive at home and at work because I don't feel like I'm contributing. No one is making me feel that way...but when I see the productivity of others compared to mine I wanna just go back to bed. Carlos and Sky have been awesome at home. I've not heard one complaint at home from them. They understand that some food is NOT FOR SHARING...now we're all good. My boss is like "Teresia just bring your snacks out of the sales floor. We know you need to eat so stop trying to hide your apple slices." *note to self after birth NEVER EAT A GREEN APPLE AGAIN.* I get barked at all day at work...Don't pick that up! Stop moving so fast! When was the last time you ate?! What did you eat?! Where is your water?! Do you need to pee?! By the end of the day I feel like screaming "I'm having a child...that doesn't make me a child!" But that would be super rude and would quickly be blamed on a mood swing. I know they all mean well but I feel like they had to babysit all day while I just ran back and forth to the bathroom. So all in all I'm trying to be upbeat...but I'm beat...and that makes be feel beat.
Spiritually:
Baby: The Lord is making me so awesome right now
Mommy: On the flip side of the emotion spiritually I'm feeling great. I've been thanking the Lord in an even more sincere way each day for my little family. I have an amazing husband who has been surprisingly calm through these ten weeks and his daily sacrifice is beyond appreciated. The Lord has blessed me we a ton of amazing women in my life that are more than willing to hit me back via text and fb message if I have an odd pregnancy question. It's been such a blessing to get a little closer with my mother-in-law and sister-in-law through this. We have a great deal of distance between us but the Lord is allowing me to feel their love all the way down here. I've gotten lots of text and calls from some amazing mothers who just wanna know how I'm doing. Which is odd yet wonderful for me because I'm use to walking around wondering how all of them are doing. Despite the little gray cloud that tries to chase me down all day the Lord never lets me get to far gone. He makes sure I have breather in the car with a cone of ice cream and reminds me what an AMAZING thing is going on right now. The weeks are FLYING by and I can only be more and more thankful each day as the Lord prepares me for another gift I don't deserve but He has seen fit to allow me to have.
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