Mirror Mirror...When Your Spouse is Being Transparent

My Love has this amazing gift of transparency and on occasion it drives me nuts.
Without a second thought he will just poor out his heart and confess anything that he may have done that might have in the slightest way dishonored the Lord or me. 
I know...I know I sound SUPER awful for that first sentence. What woman wouldn't want her husband to be willing to open up and talk to her? What woman would rather her man kept all his thoughts and sins bottled up inside him?

Who you ask... a woman who finds it excruciating to be transparent...that's who. 

Over time I've come to appreciate this quality of his deeply. I'd tell any woman who'll listen to please be a safe place for your husband to express how he feels and what he's struggling with. Are there some things that he may need to take to the Lord or other men to get a more rounded response? Definitely. However, if you make your home and your heart his place of safety he'll be less tempted to look for other ears to listen. Believe me there are others willing to hear him out. So his transparency is not the issue in our marriage it's mine. 

Everyday he and I grow closer and I open up a little more because he has done a great job of becoming my safe place. However, I tend to not utilize that place as often as I should. Admitting I'm wrong or that I messed something up is almost physically painful for me. We've talked about my hesitancy to confess in the past and it simply boils down to fear and pride. I'm afraid that my wrongs will make me unworthy of love. My pride has a hard time remembering that my Love and I are on the same team. We aren't working towards a winner and loser. We are working towards being a beautiful reflection of the Gospel. 

My belief that my husband's love could waver so easily is not fare to him and I'm working daily to change that mindset. As far as pride goes I think as long as there is sin it will be a struggle for me. 

I think the saying "practice makes perfect," works well here. The more I use the safety net that is my husband's arms the more likely I am to run to him instead of away. 

Until next time

-T